Always wanted a long-lasting relationship. Everybody in the world needs a companion to stay with them forever regardless whatever happens in their life. I want to hold on too.
But I realize it is not gonna happen, I know you are not gonna reconsider.
Even I have come a long way from my sufferings, doesn't mean you never felt this, I can imagine how much difficulties you had gone through on giving up our relationship. It is never easy for anyone.
I have tried all the possible ways to get you back, some were stupidity of me, some were stalking, for which I hate myself, some gave me lessons for lifetime, some advises from your side made me feel sick and vomit.
Yet, When I realize that the reality is pushing me towards the edge of a cliff, I panic and strive to survive. I did everything and anything to reverse the situation.I had searched for any possible ways to win you back, perhaps through wrong ways. I just wanted not to feel the pain.
But sometimes what makes us strong is letting go instead.
So I'm working on it, stopped thinking or visiting the places we were together, not anymore.
keeping our old photos in a place where I can't easily reach.
I'll think of you again only when you send me a friend request.
And I'll focus myself on things that became easy when you were gone.
Believe that everything is going to be okay and it is just a matter of time.
When you look back in the future, you will be surprised at how much you have grown.
I'm in California dreaming about who we used to be
When we were younger and free
I've forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet
There's such a difference between us
And a million miles"
Letting go.......
~Shanan
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