Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Gone are the days....

Never felt this much numb before...

Earlier it was A R Rahman's soothing romantic melodies and Raaja's rare fast beat songs that made my life.
And now, it is the freaking Linking Park, Eminem...
oh yeah, Taylor swift too, only the sad ones...
And at times, Ed Sheeran! What is wrong with me, have I ever imagined I would listen to Ed Sheeran?

Yeah you told me, when we had a fight the other day, the other year, "Listen to this song from Ed Sheeran, I fear we might end up like this"...
I was like, "You silly, we will be together, forever!"

Did you really mean it that time, my love?

When I was studying average, you made me study more,
when I was targeting the class topper, you were there with me, encouraging me,
When I got promoted at office, you were the first one to know that, and that joy you have passed made me think of go more higher and higher....

But now, I feel empty, the willingness to perform is drastically dropped.
I don't care about innovations... How come I'm an apple fan?
Easily giving up on any tasks... How come I'm an Aussie fan?
All these days I was thinking the sports teams and their attitudes reflected in me,
But the reality is, YOU have reflected in my every blood and vein.
I was a big fan of YOU, and since you have gone, my attitudes also have gone.

People around me are supporting me, encouraging me...
having awesome friends who I will never forget in life, having good siblings, but their encouragement is not bringing back the real me...
It is just YOU I want, to get the real ME back,
and I'm worried I might not get myself back again.

Is Love that Powerful....
Ask a person who failed, He will tell you the power of Love!

~Shanan


Wednesday, April 20, 2016

You name it....

Not feeling all right...

Checking her FB everyday in curiosity to know if she updated anything there...

If there's no new things, then feels somewhat down...

And today, when checked suddenly there were changes...

Cover Pic and Profile Pic Both changed!

Technically I should be happy, but once saw a change in her profile and saw her pics,

My whole body is shivering, my lungs losing air, heart beating very fast...

Is this because of I saw her after years?

Or because of the fact she is no more mine?

Or is it because she has changed a lot and look so beautiful and she hates me now?

If you name this feel, this lost in translation feel,

Then that is what the definition of :

"Pain of Love"

~Shanan